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Lisa Bennett reviews The Bee and the Orange Tree for ABR

Thank you to Australian Book Review and Lisa Bennett for reviewing The Bee and the Orange Tree.

In their earliest incarnations, fairy tales are gruesome stories riddled with murder, cannibalism, and mutilation. Written in early seventeenth-century Italy, Giambattista Basile’s Cinderella snaps her stepmother’s neck with the lid of a trunk. This motif reappears in the nineteenth-century German ‘The Juniper Tree’, but this time the stepmother wields the trunk lid, decapitating her husband’s young son. In seventeenth-century France, Charles Perrault’s Bluebeard kills his many wives because of their curiosity, while in his adaptation of ‘Sleeping Beauty’, the Queen’s appetite for eating children drives her to commit suicide out of shame. Jealous, Snow White’s stepmother (and in some versions her biological mother) wants to kill the girl and eat her innards, but is ultimately thwarted; her punishment is to dance herself to death wearing red-hot iron shoes.

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https://www.australianbookreview.com.au/abr-online/current-issue/690-fiction/6070-lisa-bennett-reviews-the-bee-and-the-orange-tree-by-melissa-ashley

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Monday musings on Australian literature: ABDA 2017 Shortlist

Thank you whispering gums for this wonderful piece.

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Five years ago, I wrote a Monday Musings on book design, in which I featured three book designers. I’ve mentioned book design occasionally since then but, having just seen the shortlist for this year’s ABDA (Australian Book Design Awards) which are sponsored by the ABDA (the Australian Book Designers Association), I’ve decided to write another post on this aspect of the thing we love – books!

ABDA describes the awards as celebrating “the bravest and brightest, the most original and beautiful books published in Australia each year”. This year’s awards are the 65th! 65 years of celebrating book design! That’s wonderful, really. They make awards in sixteen categories, including four awards in Children’s and YA categories, and awards for specialist areas like Cookbooks, Fully-illustrated books, and Educational books.

I couldn’t possibly list all these, but if you are interested you can find them at the link I gave in the first…

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5 Lessons from Melissa Ashley to Boost Your Historical Research

Thanks so much for your wonderful interview and write-up!

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Promotional photo of Melissa Ashley Melissa Ashley Author of The Birdman’s Wife

A week ago I had the privilege to talk with Melissa Ashley over the phone and pepper her with questions about how she researched The Birdman’s Wife, about Elizabeth Gould and about her current work in progress based on the life of Marie-Catherine d’Aulnoy, a French writer of fairytales before the days of the Grimm brothers.

I only wish I had a podcast so you could hear the whole conversation, in lieu of that here are 5 valuable lessons I picked out to help you along the winding road of historical research.

To purchase The Birdman’s Wife  go here.

Meet Melissa Ashley

Melissa Ashley is the author of The Birdman’s Wife (Affirm Press, October 2016), the fictional memoir of the extraordinary 19th-century bird illustrator, Elizabeth Gould. The Birdman’s Wife is the child of her PhD in creative writing research (University of Queensland). In addition to…

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The Birdman’s Wife, shortlisted for the Australian Book Design Awards 2017

The Birdman27s Wife coverI’m excited that my debut novel The Birdman’s Wife has been shortlisted in the literary fiction category for the Australian Book Designer Association’s 2017 book awards.

I was privileged to work with Christa Moffitt of Christabella Designs, Fiona Henderson and Affirm Press on the cover, case, endpapers and page designs for The Birdman’s Wife.

I have always loved fairy wrens, the genus featured on the cover of The Birdman’s Wife. I lived in Ipswich for some years, and my partner planted a beautiful native garden, which attracted a family of superb fairy wrens. We used to drink our coffee on the veranda and listen to their soft twitterings.

redbacked fairywrenIt was on a twitch, early in my bird-watching career, that I first encountered red-backed fairy wrens, in the brambles along the banks of the Bremer River. A trip to Anstead Gardens revealed variegated fairy wrens, with their lovely chestnut wing coverts. During a stay at Bowra Conservation Reserve, we were lucky to encounter both white-winged fairy wrens, the males in their full summer colours of striking blue bodies, and white wings, along with splendid fairy wrens, still dressed in their winter plumage.

Driving to Broken Hill, we tweeted white-winged fairy wrens, this time in their black hybrid morphs. Travelling in Tasmania, I saw superb fairy wrens again, and imagined what Elizabeth Gould must have felt, viewing these friendly, inquisitive backyard wood birds for the first time, alive and active.

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Before coming to Australia, Elizabeth Gould had already illustrated several species of fairy wren, however, her drawings and coloured lithographs were taken from taxidermied specimens. Researching Elizabeth’s lithographs for The Birds of Australia, I was pleased to discover that Elizabeth drew 9 species of this lovely genus before her untimely death. They are some of her most exquisite lithographs for The Birds of Australia,

As part of my research to write The Birdman’s Wife, I travelled to Kansas, to the Spencer Research Library, where more than 2000 manuscripts, lithographs, drawings, sketches and paintings are stored, the preparatory work carried out by Elizabeth and John Gould and other artists to produce their magnificent plates. To my delight, I was privileged to view a signed pencil sketch of the superb fairy wren by Elizabeth Gould, which became the lithographed plate in The Birds of Australia.

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It was my secret hope that Elizabeth Gould’s iconic, hand-coloured lithograph of the superb fairy wren featured in the cover design for The Birdman’s Wife. You can imagine how chuffed I felt when my editor, publisher, and book-designer felt the same way.

Christa Moffitt came up with the original design for the cover, which, through the visionary generosity of Affirm Press, was combined with endpapers that feature many of Elizabeth Gould’s most well-known illustrations for The Birds of Australia: the superb lyrebird, the satin bowerbird, the extinct norfolk island kaka, along with several lithographs from earlier collections, including the resplendent quetzal and mrs gould’s sunbird, named after Elizabeth Gould.

13692655_10209613170342152_2518697375758487952_nAnd it didn’t stop there. I remember saying to my publisher at Affirm that my dream was to have a novel published. Little was I prepared for the sumptuous hardback that became the final novel. Not only does The Birdman’s Wife include full-colour endpapers – with a key to the featured species – there are other surprises inside the dust jacket: a full-colour reveal of Elizabeth Gould’s superb fairy wren on the case; an etching of the superb lyrebird from the frontispiece of the original release of The Birds of Australia – John Gould adored the lyrebird, crowning it the emblematic species of Australia’s unique birdlife. Flipping through the pages of The Birdman’s Wife more delights lie in store for the reader, including uncoloured lithographs of budgerigars, swifts, eggs, to punctuate the novel’s three distinct parts.

I’m so very pleased that the extraordinary vision of Affirm Press, Christabella Designs and my commissioning publisher Fiona Henderson has been recognised by the Australian Book Designer’s Association in its 2017 shortlist.

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The Birdman’s Wife long-listed in the General Fiction Category, Australian Book Industry Awards 2017

The Birdman27s Wife coverI am delighted to announce the news that on March 16, 2017, The Birdman’s Wife was long-listed for the Australian Book Industry Awards under the General Fiction Category.

“For 17 years, the ABIAs have been celebrating Australian stories and the astounding talent in the Australian publishing industry.

The shortlist will be revealed on April 9, with the winners announced during the ABIA gala event on May 25, hosted by multiple ABIA-winning writer and performer, Magda Szubanski at the Art Gallery of NSW.”

http://abiawards.com.au/general/2017-abia-book-longlist/

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General Fiction Book of the Year

  • All These Perfect Strangers, Aoife Clifford (Simon & Schuster Australia)
  • The Birdman’s Wife, Melissa Ashley (Affirm Press)
  • The Chocolate Tin, Fiona McIntosh (Michael Joseph, Penguin Random House)
  • The Dry, Jane Harper (Macmillan Australia, Pan Macmillan Australia)
  • The Four Legendary Kingdoms, Matthew Reilly (Macmillan Australia, Pan Macmillan Australia)
  • The One Who Got Away, Caroline Overington (HarperCollins, HarperCollins Publishers)
  • The Rules of Backyard Cricket, Jock Serong (Text Publishing, Text Publishing)
  • Truly Madly Guilty, Liane Moriarty (Macmillan Australia, Pan Macmillan Australia

To view long-listed titles in other categories go to:

http://abiawards.com.au/general/2017-abia-book-longlist/

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Writers’ Festivals: Losing my Virginity

Last week I had the great privilege of being invited to perform as an artist at the 2017 Perth Writers’ Festival (23-26 February) to promote my first novel, The Birdman’s Wife, put into print by the incredible independent Australian publisher, Affirm Press.

perthI have been very lucky in being invited to speak at a huge range of gigs: Newtown Festival; The Big Bookclub at the Avid Reader; Riverbend Books; QLD Museum; Mitchell Library; Farrells’ Bookstore in Hobart; Book Face; and a local environmental group. These events went really well (to my nervous relief). Terrified of public speaking, I was surprised to discover much enjoyment in signing books and meeting readers, discovering their various links to Elizabeth Gould’s story. Some were bird-watchers, some historians, others artists in their own right.

Having spent many years (too many to confess) as an eager punter at writers’ festivals, someone who would look in awe at the authors’ taking up each panel and speaking intelligently and eloquently about their books, I used to wonder at their nerves. I panicked, fearful of how they managed to follow each others’ conversations, how they weren’t intimidated by the huge crowds, how they didn’t have a nervous breakdown before and after each event.

gettingreadyTo prepare myself, I read all of the books of my fellow panelists, supplied by their publishers. I had no idea being a published writer entailed such perks. But, come the week I was flying to Perth, I felt myself consumed by a horrid stomach-full of nervous energy.

The first way that I spoke back to such intense emotion was to go shopping. New dresses, new earrings, hell, a new handbag even, to match my shoes. I couldn’t quite concentrate on my writing in the days precipitating my flight.

It was my first visit to Perth, and the festival organisers were brilliant, securing a lovely hotel room, shuttle buses, cash for food, and a bunch of other writers to get to know. Before my first gig, I met the beautiful Nadia L King, author of Jenna’s Truth, blogger, reviewer, instagram star and all-round supporter of writers. nadiafriends

berniceThe following day, I was so nervous about my impending first conversation, with the erudite Bernice Barry, author of a biography on Georgiana Molloy, a 19th century botanist from Western Australia, I wasn’t sure if I would make it to the outdoor space where I was to perform. And it was really hot, the 36+ degree temperature (not unlike the whole of Brisbane’s heatwave summer) following me all the way to Perth.

To my great relief and gratitude, Martin Hughes, CEO of Affirm Press, flew in to accompany me, to talk me up and talk down my nerves before I stepped in front of the microphone and crowds. My first gig was a full house and it went well, despite my discomfort at being out of a familiar place, and several paramedics turning up 55 minutes into our conversation to cart off several members of the audience who had succumbed to the heat. We stopped immediately, though I felt concerned about the temperature forecast for the following day: over 40 degrees.

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As if in some sort of compensation, an audience member had sketched Bernice, Barbara Horan, our lovely chair, and myself, while we spoke. Afterwards, the artist  came up to the stage and introduced herself, asked us all to autograph her sketch. What a gift.

sketchI signed a few books, and then scurried away for a cigarette, my rapidly beating heart slowed, at least for the moment. I had a great dinner with Martin, laughs and drinks, all precipitated by a confused wander through the streets of Perth’s CBD (neither of us has much of a sense of direction).

Nevertheless, I couldn’t sleep much that night. I worried incessantly about my two gigs the following day. One of which was with my literary heroine, Hannah Kent. Would I turn to jelly in her presence? And then I moved on and fixated on the belief that I was not comfortable talking about The Birdman’s Wife without notes for the proscribed ten minutes the panel required. Once our chair, the lovely Geraldine Blake, and Martin reassured me that I could present in the manner which made me most comfortable, my nerves gripped onto another unknown. Due to the fame of Hannah, I panicked that we were about to perform in an indoor Roman arena. Would I get ‘the chokes’ like Howard Moon from The Mighty Boosh and humiliate myself entirely? Or fall over a mike lead or spill my water and electrocute Hannah or some other unanticipated embarrassment? Exposed as a buffoon, the butt of everyone’s jokes.

Somehow — it really is a blur –I got a hold of my nerves and turned up the following morning to meet Hannah Kent, author of Burial Rites and The Good People. To gush over Jessie Burton, writer of the bestselling novels The Miniaturist and The Muse. I sweated in a most unladylike fashion in their company, pressing my legs together (the toilet line was looong), trying to not fan-girl them too badly. Though I could not help raving about their mastery of structure, plot, dialogue, character, lyricism. When I stilled my jabbering jaws, I marvelled as they engaged in pre-gig laughs about jetlag from visiting Iceland, New York. I nodded and grinned, trying to not appear insane, shaking hands pinned behind my back.

Jessie-a trained actor-and Hannah, a consummate writer – spoke with intelligence, respect, humour and openness. I was proud that I managed to not stumble my own answers to Geraldine’s questions. I felt the warmth in the room that lit up their fans, turned out to see their favourite writers in the flesh. Afterwards, we traipsed over to the book-signing room; Martin reckoned I smashed it, and I felt pretty chuffed that I managed to save face. That was until the extraordinary Clementine Ford (deep bows) arrived and I noted that I was seated between her beautifully fierce self and my literary crush, Hannah Kent. Luckily my hand-bag carrier/publisher was lurking, and bade me make a hasty exit.

hannahandjessieBoth evenings I had dinner with my publisher. I think I told him about five times that I signed with Affirm Press because of their manifesto of building a relationship with their writers. They have integrity, guts, and are willing to take a risk with somebody whose writing they believe in. That evening, apart from trawling half of Perth’s CBD in search of a restaurant, I learned much about publishing, book sales, prizes, and literary passion. I returned to my hotel feeling looked after and reassured. Affirm Press believed in me.

Nevertheless, it wasn’t long before my anxiety reared up and grasped me by the throat. To calm my nerves, Martin distracted me by asking about the poem I loved best in all the world. It was in fact resonating through my brain all weekend, written by the maddest of mad poets, Robert Lowell. I dare not share Waking in the Blue (my real favourite) and instead confessed a penchant for the mysterious Skunk Hour:

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For Elizabeth Bishop


Nautilus Island’s hermit
heiress still lives through winter in her Spartan cottage;
her sheep still graze above the sea.
Her son’s a bishop.  Her farmer
is first selectman in our village,
she’s in her dotage.

Thirsting for
the hierarchic privacy
of Queen Victoria’s century,
she buys up all
the eyesores facing her shore,
and lets them fall.

The season’s ill--
we’ve lost our summer millionaire,
who seemed to leap from an L. L. Bean
catalogue.  His nine-knot yawl
was auctioned off to lobstermen.
A red fox stain covers Blue Hill.

And now our fairy 
decorator brightens his shop for fall,
his fishnet’s filled with orange cork,
orange, his cobbler’s bench and awl,
there is no money in his work,
he’d rather marry.

One dark night,
my Tudor Ford climbed the hill’s skull,
I watched for love-cars.  Lights turned down, 
they lay together, hull to hull,
where the graveyard shelves on the town. . . .
My mind’s not right.

A car radio bleats,
‘Love, O careless Love . . . .' I hear
my ill-spirit sob in each blood cell,
as if my hand were at its throat . . . .
I myself am hell;
nobody’s here--

only skunks, that search
in the moonlight for a bite to eat.
They march on their soles up Main Street:
white stripes, moonstruck eyes’ red fire
under the chalk-dry and spar spire
of the Trinitarian Church.

I stand on top
of our back steps and breathe the rich air--
a mother skunk with her column of kittens swills the garbage pail
She jabs her wedge-head in a cup
of sour cream, drops her ostrich tail,
and will not scare.

All weekend, I wanted desperately to connect with my fellow writers but I was so overwhelmed by my professional responsibilities that it was simply not possible. I would have gushed, stuttered and knocked something over — I had already done all of this in front of my work colleague and friend Elspeth Muir, with whom I caught the plane — and decided I would be better off saving myself for the next festival.

By the time I got to my final gig, a conversation with Kate Summerscale, author of The Wicked Boy, a biography of a 13 year old boy who stabbed his mother to death, spent 17 years in a mental asylum and then emigrated to Australia to become a decorated ANZAC medic, my brain had nearly imploded. Despite Susan Wyndham’s excellent facilitation as chair, a week of intense anxiety resulted in a challenging panel. I felt my responses to anticipated questions running away from my consciousness before I had even started speaking. Yes, I rambled somewhat.

perthfestivalmartinI burst into embarrassing tears following my last panel, and yet, despite my red eyes and blubbering, I felt as if I had pushed myself to the very limits of my abilities with regard to public speaking. I was sorta proud, despite my feelings of utter humiliation. I think many writers feel this. It’s just how we are.

That evening I had a few too many (deserved) champagnes, which led to a remarkable opportunity. I hung out with Deng Adut, a former child soldier from South Sudan who runs a human rights legal practice and has been honoured as a New South Welshman of the year, one of the real superstars of the festival.

All in all, my first writers’ festival was an incredible experience. I’m still thinking about it three days later. At the airport, I ran into Elspeth Muir, author of Wasted, a memoir about alcohol consumption in Australia and a family tragedy, recently long-listed for the Stella Prize, who I work with at the University of Queensland. It seems my intense nerves are not unique. We commiserated about speaking alongside literary superstars, about our guts and relief, laughing, spilling coffee, giggling and riffing off one another, so much so that we almost missed our flight home.perthbubblies

I have several more festivals this year, and am so relieved I survived my first. An initiation in no small sense of the term. Six months ago, after ten years’ effort, I published my first novel. It was a labour of love, and I thought that once I had got on the other side of the publisher’s door, all would be well. Little did I know that a whole other world of sales and publicists and editors and talks lay in wait. But I did it. I’m not sure if I will ever be totally comfortable with public speaking. But I’m still here, I signed a few books and my heart’s still beating. Next time, I’ve decided, I’m going to meet some writers!!

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When you gonna’ make up your mind?

dogMy neighbours are on their veranda, clearing plates and talking, after sharing dinner with their extended family. My kids are staying with their grandparents, to give me 24 hours to myself before the Xmas crazy begins. Ariel, our cat, slinks about my legs as I sit outside, smoking and typing in the dark, listening to dogs barking, cars in the distance.

It’s been a funny old year and I’m still catching up to the experiences I’ve had. To the interior resources I’ve needed to draw upon, to the unexpected joy and pleasure I’ve discovered in public speaking. (I’ve suffered from and wasted far too many years with severe social anxiety.) I’m not good at holidays, and when the frenzy of work stops, I find myself a little lost and discombobulated.

There is every reason for me to have an easy Xmas in a few days, and yet I find myself shadowed by the Decembers of the past two years. In 2014, the life of my family was irrevocably changed by my daughter’s diagnosis of cone-rod dystrophy, a retinal degenerative disease. Cone-rod dystrophy is rare, 1 in 40,000 people have the faulty gene or genes and the pathway of its causation can be hereditary or by spontaneous mutation. Because there is no history of the disorder on either side of our family, my daughter’s diagnosis was a profoundly shocking and distressing experience.

I wonder if it is okay to write about this, about how I feel, about my daughter’s vulnerability. 2016 has been a difficult year for her, particularly with her education; she is legally blind and needs aides, technology, teacher support and other resources to access written texts. English, history, and science are engaged with using text to speech technology; maths is a nightmare – it is exceedingly difficult to see decimal points and symbols with a loss of central vision. So difficult that she has not been assessed in several subjects. Some sports are okay – swimming, running with a buddy – but others, particularly those that use a ball, are frightening; loss of central vision results in the inability to track a moving object properly.

That said, my daughter has excellent mobility; indeed, people often comment to me that she seems perfectly fine. Severe low vision, without the markers of a guide dog or cane, can be something of an invisible illness. And I think this is where she struggles, as she wants to be just like everyone else, to fit in, and strangers, teachers, peers and even family sometimes express opinions that are frustrating, in their attempts to help or reassure. Suggesting that the ways she has learned to navigate are less difficult and extraordinary than they really are.

My daughter is in fact, an incredibly resilient, courageous, intelligent, feisty and perceptive pre-teen. She has recently adopted an all-black wardrobe, which she calls ‘emo’ – I get into trouble when I accidentally call her a goth. I have allowed her to dye her hair black, and even wear eye-liner when we visit friends, ignoring funny looks from people, because this is a persona she has created to help her identify positively with being different.

Where, as a mother I might be concerned about how much time she spends in front of the mirror, instead I put it to one side and help her. Try not to make an issue of it. Because she needs to look at herself using her peripheral vision, she cannot form a clear picture of her own face, and who am I to deprive her of this fundamental relationship with herself, especially in that her condition is degenerative?

There is much hope for the future, with retinal implants, and it is very likely she will, hopefully sooner than later, have her sight restored one day. We keep that at the back of our thoughts and focus on the now.

Unfortunately, as a single parent and arts worker, and I wonder if I am entering taboo territory here, I have found my role of supporting her very difficult at times. The devastation of her diagnosis triggered a severe breakdown in December 2014 and I now have a mental illness which needs managing with a handful of twice-daily medications. Which I cannot see myself weaning off any time soon: while 2016 has been one of the happiest years of my life, it has also been one of the saddest. Our little family could not hold together through the strain of being writers, workers, parents and partners. A year ago, almost to the day, my husband and I separated.

As I come through the end of 2016, where I have probably alienated half of my friends by over-posting the recognition my first novel has received on Facebook, I can reflect a little about why I did this. I think, in the grip of emotional devastation, both mine and others, I held out these little gems of achievement? recognition? hope? – to keep an important part of my identity intact, while the rest of me fought to survive.

I read an article recently (I remember neither the author nor the source, or was it listening to a conversation on radio national?), about living past trauma, integrating major life change. The speaker – it was radio national – a psychologist, challenged the notion that we ‘get over’ a situation in which everything we had thought made up our lives and selves shatters. When we have to adapt to circumstances using our physical, mental and emotional capabilities in ways we had not imagined were possible.

It is okay, the woman explained, to just get through. ‘Just,’ in itself, can be sufficient. To keep getting out of bed, to keep moving though we feel reduced, unravelled, in shards. That for many, it is never the case of ‘triumph over tragedy’, that narrative our media likes to recycle for exceptional transformation. For the rest us, such an expectation can be psychologically detrimental.

I guess what I’m trying to remind myself is that, while the determination and ‘strength’ I thought I had, that I once built my identity around, seems to have up and left for good, that’s sort of inevitable. And it may seem obvious, but it’s an awareness and an acceptance that I need to keep reminding myself of, lest I create a schism of self-pity or victimisation between then and now. Lest I get ‘sick’ again.

On another level, I’m attempting to give myself permission to recognise that cliche, ‘things change’ which Tori Amos so beautifully opened and released in the song Winter.

Already 2017 is full of challenges. My daughter is starting high school. I am a single parent. I am a writer, and thus, financial security, particularly long-term, is something that I have pretty much sacrificed to the altar of the craft I committed to mastering some 20 years ago. I have a writing schedule that will require spells and alchemy, thankfully writing provides that once and a while, to fulfill.

Right now, anticipating the new year and its looming demands makes me grit my teeth, makes my stomach clench, cold and metallic. Will I cope? Will this be my undoing? The threat, if you have a mental illness, is that an experience, a period of prolonged stress and over work, will tip you out of remission. Skid you back down the rabbit hole into the tank of isolation which, in my experience, is one of the most devastating outcomes of active mental illness. The utter disconnection from others, the complete withdrawal into a dis-eased self, that without treatment, without argument, only expands, pulling all meaning down with it.

While I was recovering from my ‘breakdown,’ I watched an extraordinary Ted Talk. The topic was stress, and yet I think it can be applied to recovering from, adapting to, major life change. The upside of being overwhelmed, or not being able to manage intense emotion, is that we are actually adapted to reach out to other people, and that there are rewards, built into our physiology and psychology for doing so. We were never meant to muddle through alone.

I’m sure this observation goes without saying to many people, but not so much those in the grip of active and / or chronic mental illness. We need to be reminded that opening up to, admitting to, sharing and speaking up about our losses and confusion and states of overwhelm, is (in) our nature. As a species, we have evolved to tackle adversity in groups. Our long socialisation as infants lays down deep wiring that requires the warmth of another’s voice, the touch of another’s hand, an exchange of eye contact, to release oxytocin, the bonding hormone that helps to secure our attachments – to infants, lovers, friends. Oxytocin produces the feeling of love: connection, warmth, comfort, belonging, relief. In other words, oxytocin is our reward for being open to other people, for being alive.

I came across a meme once that described depression (the same might be said of anxiety) as a bully who abuses and beats you until you’re a bruised mess curled in a corner, unable to stand. By this I mean that mental illness has a terrible capacity to seduce and manipulate you into identifying with it, no matter the disorder. I find this observation of the bully immensely helpful. It gave me a little ‘haiku’ moment, a flash of recognition as I visualised the aggressor depression separated from the shell of the self.

But mental illness, in whatever guise, is not the summation of who you are. No matter how cosy it may feel snuggling up to the silky black pup of depression or tying to outwit the avenging disciplinarian of anxiety.

Isolation, for that is the root devastation of mental illness, is so damaging because one’s perspective becomes severely distorted without input from other people. Speaking out about your experiences is not some mere distraction from a ‘bad mood,’ is not whinging, is not burdening others. Rather, it can lead to renewed belonging, a sense of inclusion, and sometimes, with the right listeners, an understanding of the particulars of our unique struggles. Relationships with others and the positives that stem from safe, interpersonal exchanges are our birthright as human beings.

I should not have to reiterate the point, to myself, to others vulnerable to debilitating anxiety, depression and other mental illness, that we should try to not isolate during what can be a very confronting time of year. If we dare enough, we can close our eyes and reach out this Christmas.

For information and help with mental illness:

Lifeline: 13 11 14

Dancing with the Black Dog

The Black Dog Institute

SANE Australia

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They carry our spirits and even clean our teeth: so what is it about birds?

Click on the link below to read my feature article for Spectrum, The Age, published 26 November, 26, 2016

http://www.brisbanetimes.com.au/entertainment/they-carry-our-spirits-and-even-clean-our-teeth-so-what-is-it-about-birds-20161121-gsu117

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Elizabeth Gould, illustrator of Birds of Australia, brought out of her husband’s shadow

Click on the link below to read Kate Evan’s ABC article about Elizabeth Gould and The Birdman’s Wife.

 

http://www.abc.net.au/news/2016-11-25/elizabeth-gould-illustrator-of-birds-of-australia-overshadowed/8051070

 

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ELIZABETH GOULD AND HOBARTON Author Melissa Ashley speaks about her book The Birdman’s Wife, at Fullers Bookshop, Hobart, 10th October 2016.

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Text published in Communion Journal, vol 6

https://walleahpress.com.au/communion6-Melissa-Ashley.html

Thank you to Ralph Wessman who published my talk about Elizabeth Gould and Hobart in the journal Communion, Walleah Press.
I’m excited to be in Hobart tonight, because it’s here that I discovered the voice of Elizabeth Gould, the heroine of my book, The Birdman’s Wife, so it’s a very special place to me. My research trip to Hobart, wandering Battery Point, lingering in the civic park where old government house stood, twitching the city’s birds, has been braided into many chapters and scenes in The Birdman’s Wife. Indeed, the novel would not be what it is, had I not undertaken this crucial visit.

John Gould, the famous 19th Century ornithologist, known worldwide as ‘The Birdman’ and ‘The Father of Australian Ornithology,’ is renowned for creating the most sublime hand-coloured lithographs of birds the world has ever seen. But few people know that his wife, Elizabeth Gould, acted as his principal artist during the first 11 years of the family business. It was Elizabeth who created more than 600 of the hand-coloured plates published in his luxury bird folios. Yet her legacy has been overshadowed by her husband’s fame. Not only did John Gould’s name feature as the author of the folios the couple produced, but he co-signed his name to all of Elizabeth’s plates. Hence, today, many people assume he was the artistic genius who brought so many amazing birds to life.

Although born in the early 1800s, in some ways Elizabeth’s experiences parallel those of women today. She can easily be related to, juggling a successful career, and taking up her roles as wife, business partner and mother to a brood of seven children. She was also a passionate adventurer and, despite her demanding and ambitious husband, came into her own as a successful artist. With great courage, Elizabeth defied the conventions of her time, parting from her three youngest children to join John on a two year expedition, voyaging from England to Australia to collect, study and describe our wonderful bird species.

At a time when the old world was obsessed with discovering and classifying the natural wonders of the new world, Elizabeth was as at its glittering epicentre. She worked alongside legends like Edward Lear and Charles Darwin — who was so impressed by her art works that he invited her to illustrate his famous Galapagos finches. Birds have always fascinated me as a writer, which over time, led me to a birdwatching hobby. This in turn created an interest in antique bird drawings and paintings. A friend loaned me a biography of John Gould, and it was within its pages that I first learned of his wife, Elizabeth. Her life gripped a hold of my writer’s imagination, and I started to delve further into her story. The more I searched, the more I wanted to discover. I decided that my interest in Elizabeth’s extraordinary life would be shared by many readers, and so I enrolled in a PhD in creative writing, and set out to reimagine her as the narrator of the historical fiction, The Birdman’s Wife.

As with any such project, research was the most important first step. Initially, I felt very much overwhelmed by the sheer mass of material I had to get my head around. I’m a writer by training, not a scientist, nor an historian or ornithologist. So I had to bury myself in swathes of correspondence, colonial history, biographies of John Gould, lithography, ornithology and, the story of the discovery of our birds.

The first few months drafting The Birdman’s Wife were a little excruciating, to say the least. My stalled attempts at telling Elizabeth’s incredible story read like a dull pastiche of names, places, dates. The writing would not ignite. Through a process of trial and error, prompted by the horror of staring at the blank page, I came to realise that field research was as important a tool in my creative process as wading through library archives. During the four years that it took to write The Birdman’s Wife, I learned to prepare scientific study skins, went on birdwatching and bird-atlassing expeditions – driving to far western Queensland, to twitch its rare birds, many of which the Goulds first described. I travelled to archives where original letters, diaries and lithographic plates were held, in America and throughout Australia.

I also made my way to Hobart. Indeed, if I hadn’t visited Tasmania, I may not have gotten beyond writing part one of The Birdman’s Wife, because the moment Elizabeth Gould figuratively set foot on Tassie soil, I was struck with an acute bout of writer’s block.

You see, I had never been to Tasmania. Thus, I planned a research trip, bringing my sister along as photographer and assistant. Late in 2011, we took off from Brisbane airport to fly to the apple isle.

 

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20161115_094940-copyThe Goulds lived in Hobart for 11 months of their 18 month ‘sojourn’ in Australia, heart of the penal colony of Van Diemen’s Land. It has been suggested that Charles Darwin hatched the idea that the Goulds make Tasmania their first destination in Australia. He had visited Van Diemen’s Land at the tail end of his Beagle Voyage, and, much fatigued and longing for home, compared the landscape to the Kentish parklands where he grew up.

After spending four months abroad the barque, the Parsee, the Goulds arrived in Hobarton, as it was known in the 1830s, on the 13th of September, 1838. I’d like to read an excerpt from The Birdman’s Wife.

Excerpt:

 

Hundreds of native swallows skimmed the surface of Port Davey Harbour. The coats on their backs sapphire, their beaks the shape of hairpin tips. The red smear on their breasts, some said, was caused by their attempts to remove the nails on Christ’s cross. Their forked tails were once whole, singed from carrying tiny buckets to douse a temple fire in Jerusalem. Like seamstresses’ scissors, they snipped and cut the imaginary boundary between the water’s surface and the air above. Fearless, they swept through the Parsee’s network of rigging, making steep curves, gliding alongside a fraying sail only to change course, diving at neck-breaking speed towards the harbour’s unfathomed depths. Just when you thought they would disappear, a suicidal rain of birds banked and turned, choosing a different direction. It was as if the squally conditions of Hobarton attracted the animals, as if they picked up the electrical thread preceding a storm. What compelled them to swim-fly so near the briny water’s surface? Was the air temperature cooler, or did the current somehow buffet their tiny bodies? Was it a sort of game, such as children play, for the sheer delight of the body’s surrender to movement, friction, space? A celebration of their skills in flying? Locked onboard a ship for five long months, how I envied the swallows’ freedom.

 

All of the chapters of The Birdman’s Wife – except one – are named after birds that Elizabeth drew, painted and lithographed. Before the 19th century, there was a widespread belief in Europe that in winter, swallows hibernated under water, like little feathered bears, rather than migrate to warmer climates. I make this observation in The Birdman’s Wife, because in creating the characters of Elizabeth and John Gould, I also wanted to show the tensions between folklore, religion, literature, mythology – where birds are bound in symbolic relationships to human culture – against a ‘rational’ scientific viewpoint. In the quoted passage, Elizabeth presents her wonder at watching swallows cavort and play, her experience intensified by having survived the perilous journey to Australia. It’s hard to believe, but until the Goulds visited Tasmania, the Welcome Swallow had not been scientifically described by Europeans. Despite 50 years of colonisation, no bird collector had peered closely enough at a welcome swallow to distinguish it from its European counterpart, the common barn swallow. It was therefore simply assumed to be the same species. And it’s not difficult to understand why John Gould called this energetic, friendly little endemic – a species only found in Australia – the Welcome Swallow.

 

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Upon their arrival in Van Diemen’s Land, the Goulds and their party took temporary lodgings at Mr Fischer’s Davey Street Inn. John wasted little time exploring and collecting specimens in Hobart and its surrounds, travelling in a 50 mile radius around the town; visiting the foothills of Mount Wellington, where he discovered the 40 spotted pardalote; and, after meeting Sir John and Lady Jane Franklin, joining Lady Jane Franklin on a surveying expedition around the south western reaches of the island.

A visitor to Hobart, I did what many tourists do, and embarked on an oceanic adventure tour around Bruny Island. It was an awesome trip. Dressed in an ankle length orange slicker and hat, wind and sun burnt, sprinkled with salt, but full of glee, I chatted to one of the guides about my wish to see an albatross. John Gould first described Tasmania’s Shy Albatross, and to see one, we bumped and smashed across the waves, following a squall of muttonbirds feeding on a school of fish. My sister snapped shots of a glorious specimen, with an expression like Sam the Eagle from the Muppets on its face. Before I could comprehend what I had seen, our guide alerted me to a rather fiendish-looking pelagic, the same size as the albatross, flying closer to our boat. It was the fierce and aggressive Southern Giant Petrel. The bird was engaging in its common habit of opportunistic hunting, attacking the mutton birds so as to force them to disgorge the fish they had caught, and steal them for himself. I was struck by what a cross and aggravated looking creature he was, but also by the plumpness of his body, his heavy middle. Flying, he seemed awkward, like a World War II bomber. This may sound like a diversion, but on the expedition to Researche Bay with Lady Franklin, the party became wind-bound near Bruny Island. Frustrated, John Gould took a boat to the island, a former whaling station, and wrote to Elizabeth about what he had seen.

 

Then he had led an expedition to Bruny Island to rain what appeared to be a shearwater rookery, but they had been turned back by the stench of rotting whale flesh. Just around the headlands, a pod of southern right whales had been herded into the bay by a whaling ship and slaughtered. John was horrified by the waste and disregard for life. The beach looked like a charnel house of decaying meat and dried skin; of bleaching yellow bones, their parts so enormous he was reminded of furniture washed onshore from a sunken ship the whales’ skulls the size of small canoes.

According to John, the most incredible sight was out on the open sea, the skies filled with southern giant petrels. The species, large as albatrosses, reminded him of airborne turtles, their lower bodies plump, their achievement of flight inexplicable. They dove down en masse to tear the blubber and flesh from the whales’ discarded remains. The southern giant petrel was a fighting species, prone to attack, smashing their own and other species in the head, forcing them to disgorge the fish in their crops. Thanks to the heavy markings on their foreheads, they looked perpetually cross.

 

I was able to write these passages in a way that would not have been possible had I not taken the adventure tour, and encountered the thrilling spectacle of watching the strange-looking Southern Giant Petrel procuring its dinner. So much so, that I named a chapter after the species.

The Goulds only intended to spend six to eight weeks in Hobart, planning to sail to Sydney and then overlanding to the Upper Hunter where Elizabeth Gould’s brothers, Charles and Stephen Coxen resided, making their living as pastoralists. There the Goulds would set up home. A base where Elizabeth could sketch and paint; a place from which John could embark on his collecting expeditions.

However, John and Elizabeth discovered more riches in Hobart’s fauna and flora than they had expected. They were in effect seduced by the island’s natural bounty to stay on. Though one could also argue that it was the friendships the Goulds made during their time in Van Diemen’s Land that really caused them to linger in the penal colony. These people aided the Goulds’ research project, acting as patrons; securing resources; organising introductions to important personages; and identifying prime spots for bird-collecting.

The first of these was the Reverend Ewing, a long-time correspondent of John Gould. He fairly gushed over Elizabeth’s hand-coloured lithographs, writing of his eagerness to receive the latest shipped consignment of exotic illustrations. He was an avid bird fancier, and, in a letter dated in 1836, the first person to suggest to John Gould that he fix his sights on Australia’s birdlife and mount an expedition. It was not a ludicrous idea. Between 1837 and 1838, Ewing, George Bennett of the Sydney Museum and Elizabeth’s brothers Charles and Stephen Coxen, regularly shipped the Goulds any peculiar and curious bird specimens that they had collected, stuffed in tin boxes or swimming in preserving alcohol in jars.

Not many know, but before the Goulds departed England for Australia, they were already familiar with the colony’s birdlife. John and Elizabeth had produced an illustrated a field guide, The Synopsis of the Birds of Australia, published in two volumes in 1837 and 1838, describing forty new species. The collection was not a luxury folio like The Birds of Australia, but rather a smaller set of volumes, intended to be used in the field as a reference by collectors. Think of it as the very first bird guide.

 

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I want to talk a little about Reverend Ewing, as he is a great example of the alchemy that occurs when archival sources are studied and interpreted for the purposes of creating historical fiction. One of the major differences between fiction and biography is that fiction provides the space, the opportunity, for the writer and thereby the reader, to engage with real life personages’ motivations, emotions, experiences and interior lives.

In a letter Elizabeth wrote to her mother from Hobarton, she shared her relief that Reverend Ewing, who was also a teacher, had taken her son John Henry, whom they had bought on the voyage, under his wing, enrolling him in the private school he worked at and waiving the tuition fees.

During research in the Spencer Library at Kansas University – the largest repository of Gouldian material in the world – I stumbled upon a manuscript written by Elizabeth and John’s daughter, Eliza Muskett Moon. Amongst other observations, she confessed that she did not recall her mother’s features – Elizabeth died when Eliza was six – but had been told by many people that her mother was a kind, loving person. Eliza Muskett Moon also shared an interesting anecdote about her brother, John Henry, who fancied telling the story of the time he was whipped and welted at the hands of Reverend Ewing. This fascinated me, and I immediately wondered what a sort of man Ewing might have been. Cruel? Firm? Disciplined? Of his time and period? It also made me consider how Elizabeth must have felt, upon discovering her son so harshly treated. Its significance with respect to Ewing’s conduct and character, lay in the fact that it was a story passed through successive generations.

By chance, further research revealed a scandal involving Ewing, which took place after Elizabeth’s death. Reverend Ewing was called back to London pending an investigation into his inappropriate treatment of several girls under his care. I was shocked by this, and determined to find a way to work the nastier side of Ewing into the narrative of The Birdman’s Wife. John Henry’s caning is written into a scene in the novel, which distresses Elizabeth greatly, reminding her of the sacrifice she has made in journeying to Australia, and its repercussions for her children. However, it was also a chance for me to show her character’s strength and passion. In The Birdman’s Wife I depict Elizabeth confronting not only her husband about Ewing’s suitability to act as her son’s tutor, but Ewing himself.

Ewing is a character about whom the Goulds’ different expectations and desires regarding their Australian expedition constellate. For despite his treatment of John Henry, Ewing remained a great friend to Gould, who never lost his respect. John even named a thornbill after him — Ewing’s thornbill — and, upon the couple’s departure from the island, put the management of his Australian business interests in Ewing’s hands.

 

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One of the most famous associations the Goulds shared during their time in Tasmania was with the Governor of the colony and his wife, Sir John and Lady Jane Franklin. Following The Researche Bay expedition, Lady Franklin invited the Goulds to take up residence in a government-owned cottage, ‘New Norfolk’.

I’m sure Elizabeth’s condition also influenced the couple’s decision to remain in Hobart. As she was wont to do, Elizabeth had fallen pregnant on the journey to Australia, and, possibly as a result of this, the pair ended up spending 11 months in Van Diemen’s Land. Elizabeth later moved into Government House to bear her child, whom she named Franklin Tasman.

 

My initial encounter with Lady Franklin was memorable for the unexpected view of her it presented. After a maid met our carriage at the gates and led us on a brisk march to the gardens, we rounded a corner to be met with Lady Franklin’s jiggling rear end. She was tugging furiously at a hardy-stemmed weed, impertinent enough to impose itself on a magnificent display of King George roses, which I later discovered she had personally grafted. The stays in her house dress had been left off and her broad-brimmed hat flattened her curls. Her feet were shod in men’s boots, enclosing her ankles and laced around the shins, unlike the soft slippers favoured by most women of her station.

 

An avid gardener, I depicted the growing friendship between Elizabeth Gould and Lady Jane Franklin in conjunction with their passions for collecting and propagating plants. Elizabeth painted many watercolour sketches of Tasmania’s plantlife, including a wonderful illustration of the Tasmanian Warratah. The drawings and watercolour washes are collected in an album held in the Mitchell Library. The paintings were extremely important – they are greasy, ripped, marked, torn – evidence that they were referred to over and over, in the production of The Birds of Australia. If you examine the drawings in the album against plates in The Birds of Australia, you can see that many species, particularly of honeyeater and parrot, are superimposed on these drawings with little change in the final plate design.

It has been said that when the Goulds farewelled the Franklins to sail for Sydney, Lady Franklin asked, in all sincerity, if she might adopt the toddling Frank. She had apparently grown quite attached to him. It seems Elizabeth was not amused. Although it did not affect the fondness they felt for one another. The Goulds returned to London a year later and kept in touch with the Franklins. Indeed, there is a rather poignant entry in Goulds’ correspondence, following the sudden death of Elizabeth in 1841 from puerperal fever. Amongst the many letters of condolence, was a message from Australia, its sender Lady Franklin, catching Elizabeth up on the colony’s news. Sadly it would be four months before Lady Jane received the sad news that London was to bring about her cherished former companion.

Tasmania was an incredible collecting experience for the Goulds, and a great stimulant to my writing imagination. Gould named many a new species spotted for the first time on the island. He collected 12 of Tasmania’s 13 endemics, returning to England impatient to describe and present his findings, illustrated by Elizabeth’s hand, in the Transactions of the Zoological Society. I had a similarly stimulating experience as a ‘wanna-be’ bird-watcher during my visit to Tasmania. I too, saw 12 Tassie endemics, missing out on the 40 spotted pardalote – I didn’t spend long enough on Bruny Island – returning to my desk at university to make a fresh and excited re-start on The Birdman’s Wife, taking up where I had left off at the Gould’s arrival in Australia.

 

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For me, researching and writing Elizabeth Gould’s fictional memoir was a kind of archaeology. I had to uncover enough layers to feel confident to write the narrative of her interior emotional life. Two hundred years of analysis of John Gould and his contributions to ornithology and zoological illustration have created a luminous figure, a colossus even. But time and again, Elizabeth is consigned to his shadow. Biographical descriptions of Elizabeth represent her as her husband’s obedient servant or supportive wife. And, maybe because she lived in Victorian times, all sorts of passive qualities were projected onto the sort of person she might have been: delicate, polite, elegant and deferent. Indeed, a few of John Gould’s biographers’ even suggested that she sacrificed her very life following her husband’s pursuits. Actually, she died in childbirth. Perhaps, more than anything else, in writing The Birdman’s Wife, I set out to overturn these outdated notions. It is my firm belief that Elizabeth Gould was a woman well-ahead of her time, a person many of us would like to befriend. She was tenacious, courageous, resilient, fiercely loving, talented and adventurous. And it’s high time the spotlight was turned on her adventurous life.


Melissa Ashley is a writer, poet, birder and academic who tutors in poetry and creative writing at the University of Queensland. She has published a collection of poems, The Hospital for Dolls, short stories, essays and articles. What started out as research for a PhD dissertation on Elizabeth Gould became a labour of love and her first novel, The Birdman’s Wife. Inspired by her heroine, she studied taxidermy as a volunteer at the Queensland Museum. Melissa lives in Brisbane.